I feel like a failure lots of times. According to others I am doing better than I think I am. Having depression can make me and others feel bad about themselves no matter how successful they are.

At work I know of some guys around my age whose lives seem perfect. They have great wives who do all kinds of nice things for them, wonderful successful kids, take exotic trips, do exciting things on the weekends, and other things. It all makes me feel like crap. My life is far from like that.

I make the mistake of comparing myself to other people. It seems like everyone else is doing better than me, except the bums. It never dawns on me that other people are hurting. As far as my social life goes, I have been a total flop. I know why, but I can't get my way out of it. So I guess I have to live with it. I'm doing OK in just about everything else except for the social life, which means a lot to me.