Esther, you should talk about it with her. I saw my T for 9 years and had to leave because I was moving. It was a really hard experience. But later, I was able to see her again so you never know; she may leave and become self-employed, etc. You should talk to her about leaving and how sad it makes you and your worries and work on a plan for after. Too, you should tell her to make sure she gives you a call if she goes out on her own, etc. you might like to work with her privately, etc.

When I terminated end-of-June in 2005, I worked hard all of 2005 up until then to figure out how to be ready. It works much better (or it did for me) facing it and talking about it and getting the hurt sorted, etc. I know what you mean about it feels like she's leaving. That's a good thing to talk about.