I too keep thinking I'm ready for a relationship, but, know that I'm not capable. I like the idea of being in love more than I like loving others.
PTSD makes it difficult for me too, because there are times I'm triggered and don't know why and can't explain it. It means there's times I don't know what's going on. It confuses and disturbs women. They want to fix me but there's not a missing part to replace, just a whole where nothing can go. Add to it that I'm bipolar one, ADHD, and a victim of many many assaults