I have a very weak sense of self, and have trouble understanding who I am. So I make these different personas. Trying to be more opinionated, skilled at a certain thing, or maybe try to fit into a certain style. But the problem with that is I’m easily influenced, so I change viewpoints and opinions a lot, which confuses people.

I have had this problem since 9th grade. I lie to both myself and others to make myself seem more interesting because i don’t feel like I have to ability to be my own person. I lack interests and hobbies. I get invested in something, then completely bored of it in an endless cycle. I also lack close relationships with people because it’s usually unstable as well.

Everything is very frustrating and confusing. I try really hard to understand how people socialize so well, keep hobbies, and believe in themselves so strongly, but I’m at a loss. :/