well, the warming weather has helped my mood a lot bluevixen.... Texas has a warm climate in general i think? theres many parts of Texas i've wanted to explore.....

finding healthy disyractions in my younger years sounded boring to me..... i was looking for excitement and girlfriends then..... just being honest..

i hurt inside and there was a big empty there.... couldnt fill it and i tried everything that seemed available to me.....

alcohol offered mental relief and the environment where it was served, in my mind, held the best hope for what i believed i needed at the time.... a chance to meet the girl i dreamed of who would go with me on the magic journey of life and happiness....

have to say, in my case, i didnt find her that way

for now, i feel a renewal.... i can open the house windows again and let the air in : )

i went outside a bit ago in bare feet : ) it was great : )

simple pleasures do more for me now than ever before.... nature... being in nature.... im so thankful its close by for me....

drinking and drugging and parting were not my answer in life.... they were part of the journey tho.....

and now, i am here, at this place, with this day ahead... and once again, i am happy to breathe air and smile....

good wishes bluevixen : ) some small blessing will appear for you ... its my sincerest hope that it will grab your attention and spend time with you forever after.....