im sorry i need to vent im lowkey worried about myself but i dont know what to do about it.

lately (past 2 years) ive been doing cocaine every month week second day. i dont pay for it my friends do it and im just along for the ride. but now i buy it on my own. but i dont crave it unless im reminded of it. and now i guess jm scared. ive lost friends to cocaine. theyre priorites and morales change.

i dont want to change. what do i do. should i stay away from them. its just willow. one friend. but no one says no. they enable i enable.

the vicious cycle.