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Originally Posted by continuosly blue
I also can relate. Learning how to deal with being triggered is the whole ballgame for me. My mind goes wild with unwanted thoughts. It takes practice to learn how to overcome the anxiety , and sometimes therapy and / or medications.
Briefly: I was with someone a very long time and had a toxic relationship. I wound up alone for awhile when I started to get so lonely I wound up back with that person. I changed , but she didn’t. Still no communication. Still I get triggered by her INACTIONS ! Feel like being alone again. But I don’t want to be lonely. That’s something I have to learn. I also am getting very tired of interacting with people. But you really need to. Even if it’s just going to the grocery store. I’m sorry for rambling, just want to say I know how you feel.
I certainly wish you the best.
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Hi CB
Thank you for the reply.
I totally get you on this.
I never wanted to be alone and couldn’t bare the thought, strangely enough after a total meltdown a few years ago I kinda needed to be alone and it happened overnight. Not one was more surprised than me, I had always had someone in my life...I found some peace in this and less of the really low feelings that cin come with a relationship that’s not going well...
I’m not sure what happened, anyway maybe it was my mind saying I could no longer cope with a relationship alone or not, I’m not sure....I’ve been alone now for a few years, I do still occasionally get lonely but it’s a different kind of lonely, difficult to explain, and I done pine like I used to for that connection...
I am not sure how it will go as time goes by but I’m still quite shocked at how I changed .....I isolate quite a lot these days due to the ruminating if things go wrong when I go out..
I’m still a big work in progress I reckon 😊
Thank you , your reply got me thinking x