I know how you feel. I felt betrayed by someone also, but also had doubts and struggles just like you. Like maybe I am blowing things up, but I also had the right to feel the way I felt. I struggled with this for awhile and I still do, but I had to realize this is part of what it is like to have BP. When other people don't understand, sometimes things like this happen. They may be tired of you or whatever. It hurts, but I just had to accept that I am mentally ill and I have to help myself at the end of the day. Otherwise, we will lose everyone in our lives. Feel the feelings you feel and take the time you need to overcome it, but don't shut her out forever. Just process the feelings and then remember you are fighting a constant battle and that the people around you being affected as well.