I am being careful not to pycho-analyze myself into inaction. The overeating and overweight is really taking a toll on my health.

I'm pretty sure my insurance would cover therapy, I'd have to go the Skype method though, there are no qualified therapists where I live. I also know that I'm not ready to open up to a stranger. it would cost me quite a few sessions before I relaxed enough, and I'm not sure that I ever would tbh.

I am doing a lot of reading, on CPTSD, and the reasons why I overeat. I'm doing a lot of self re-parenting.

I'm keeping track of what I eat, not following a commercial diet, just writing things down and being calorie aware. This is keeping me from overeating, and gives me the chance to address why I want to overeat. It gives me the chance to respond to why I want to overeat in a way that helps me process. Not all my overeating is in response to an emotional flashback. Often times it's because I'm exhausted, or just habit.

Anyway, that's where I am today.