welcome back. sorry to hear about your parents, I have lost one of my parents some time ago. it does get better with time.

also read your profile where you stated your old log in was calista+12. maybe you can contact a moderator who can help you to either log in that account or deactivate that one and have this one and attach your other posts together. this way you wont lose out on any replies that come to your old posts and people wont get confused by you having two accounts.