CODA meeting in an hour or so. I'm feeling like a bratty child right now and don't want to go but I'm going to adult and go anyway. Maybe it will help me stop feeling so stupid about going back to therapy. I was feeling better about it yesterday, but today I keep thinking about t's frustration with me and that makes me feel stupid that I went back. I don't feel connected to her at all anymore. It's like I'm back but our former connection is gone because I killed it. And I miss it. I miss it a lot more than I did before I went back. Why'm I so dumb??? smh