That is true and I do want to respect my mother's rules. In terms of anti depressant meds and alcohol, that's correct. Poor decision making, yeah true again. I don't feel like I'll be unhappy if I don't get to drink or smoke just that sometimes it can be fine if it's in moderation of course or in a safe place. As for now it's probably not the best idea. I love to write, paint and read and I'm attending Uni in the fall. Looking for a summer job currently.