schizophrenic when you're not. that seems to be how my diagnosis works. when i had my manic episode, it was so bad i was diagnosed with "mild Schizophrenia" (to me, that's like being a lil bit pregnant) and "Bipolar I," together...at long last. Oh, and then I was given tons of involuntary shock.

rambling, yet again. I'm thinking maybe I should just learn to love the clinic, labels, etc., but...

the clinic people are nice enough, now...when I was down and out, they weren't. Now, I have my well-to-do parents' support and protection. hmmm....

did I mention that my IQ estimate is higher now than my 1st shrink estimated, before all the treatment (read: brain damage) and such? Yeah...either he was off by 15 points +/-, or...something unusual has happened...

kinda makes me wonder if maybe I should just see about getting a job and quitting the world of mental health. until now, its always been about control and labels and blah blah blah...

now, they're nicer to me, im nice enough, but im kinda tired of being a 'patient,' dealing with doctors and clinics and even my smarmy pharmacist...

ok. just thought id pop in and be a smart ***. have a nice night.