I'm awake... it's 3:20am I've been lying in bed for over 3 hours now WIDE awake.

I've been looking into seeing a counsellor as I've been waiting 6 months to see a Psychologist through the NHS (Health Care system) in Scotland. My Psychiatrist said he was referring me at end of January when I saw him. I see Psychiatrist on 6th August again. I'm prepared to pay if they will be able to support me as I'm under the Community Mental Health Team (Psychiatrist/Community Psychiatric Nurse and Community Support Worker). But I feel I need more guidance with everything. So I bite the bullet and emailed a counsellor of course I have at least 7 hours before she replies. But I did it. Been sitting on this for weeks now. But I've finally did it. My anxieties are up in case she declines or she thinks I'm mental. Plus I'm having mini panic attacks (feeling sick) the sickness has been an on going problem for months. It's a panic thing. This was a big step for me cause I'm massively anxious and shy. But I need to get my life sorted. Wish me luck