Hmm... I do not believe I write in a clear manner (I don't even know the basic grammar but I write using the top of my head) BUT I believe if I practice and practice using English language more and more, I will be able to publish good research papers into scientific journals. Colleagues won't give me awkward looks even if I do not make sense while talking. It's because they're medical scientists themselves and it's a fact currently no professor in my class gives me awkward looks. They just analyze whether or not I pay attention during the lecture and whether or not I get what they're saying.

I sometimes see my struggles as "the world isn't ready for an overly-brilliant mind like mine." Because you know? I am inbred, isolated, abused, injured, beaten, malnourished (even now), emotionally numbed among other things I cannot recall and shouldn't recall. I pass my science classes even in dire health like this. Imagine how my intellect would turned out to be if I wasn't inbred among the rest of the things.