Also, self destruction or extreme decisions can be a coping mechanism. It’s like when people cut themselves, they do it because all of their emotional pain is instantly relieved when they feel that physical pain. Or like when you get super angry and throw something that breaks; as soon as it breaks there is such a rush of release. It’s the same with some bipolar states of mind: alleviation of negativity is dealt with by destroying something. By making a horrible decision. By causing yourself a great loss. By being drastic enough to hinder your life. It’s the extreme nature of the behavior that replaces whatever negativity you were desperate to rid. The negativity I fight is often, simply, my own thoughts. My feelings. It’s all in my head. But it’s a very real thing. I try to DISTRACT myself with something even more extreme. This reckless behavior is addicting. It’s addicting because of how good it feels and how it relieves so much pressure, pain, fear, sorrow, etc. . . . Despite how temporary that relief is.

I hope that makes sense. It’s not the same for everyone, but I’m just trying to express how I personally can understand his behavior. I hope it helps.