I texted my T (who I am thinking of ending therapy with anyway) because I was wanting clarification on something she said on Thursday that has stuck in my brain and causing me to ruminate. I'm irritated because she is denying that she said what she said (one more reason to end therapy) and irritated because she said again that we might need to talk about me going inpatient. I think she isn't used to my issues, or she is inexperienced with them. I had a great T for 10 years who never said I should go inpatient but did tell me to go to the ER though, or agreed with me when I thought I should go. But I totally don't feel that unstable right now so I'm frustrated. I'm hoping the T I am interviewing next month is better. Totally missing my old T. Why do T's deny what they say? At least own it. She seemed pretty sure of it in the moment. Ugh.