I went to the session, and didn't say anything, but I am bewildered and disillusioned . He is very strict and sure-handed, and the reason I adore him anyway is that he presents himself as endlessly experienced with what I need. However, on Reddit it seemed more like he didn't know what to do with me not trusting him, and that his experience is actually with PTSD and prolonged exposure therapy , and that he is kind of winging it here reading papers and studying up. he talked about my trust in him disintegrating, and how reluctactant he was to depart from his training in any way. I don't dare post the whole thing here, bc I can just imagine a social media funhouse effect in which he reads abut me reading- it becomes kind of 21st century Shakespeare comedy at that point. I am so hurt. This T is such a North Star for me at this point, and I have overridden my own instincts 1000 times at his beckoning to trust him and tell him things I don't want to. I feel like I don't know who he is anymore, but I don't know if that is overreact due to CPTSD or if that is valid . I am close to 100 percent sure if I confront him with this, he will end the relationship bc he will feel like the T/client relationship is poisoned. I am really sure he would take responsibility and be very sad, but I can't overstate how tough he is on boundaries and following through- he is used to military and prison populations and he's decisive and welcomes the tough calls. What he isn't as good at is the nurturing supportive side, though he is very empathetic and sensitive to meaning. Somewhere down deep, I depend on him greatly. Not to be dramatic, but he definitely saved my life.