I am on so much medication for depression, anxiety, panic attacks and some PTSD. In fact, I left the hosp on the same drugs, which I think is unusual. I take cymbalta, seroquel, lamictal, ativan and ambien. Why do I still feel depressed. I have been on just about every med there is. I feel like i have hit the brick wall and have no where else to go. I know the body will become immune to the drugs after awhile but I am scared to death. Everytime I see my psychdoc I am shaking because I am afraid she will take one of them away. I'm just scare tonight. Don't know what made me think of this, my mind is just constantly going in every direction all the time. I will not remember tomorrow what I did today. I see my therapist tomorrow and i am even afraid she will call and say I can't be there today. I know I'm just rambling but I need someone to hold me and give me hugs. i miss that. pjan