((((nightbird)))) Thats sweet of you to say. I dont think the hard work is ever gonna be behind me. At least for me know. I just found out two weeks ago i am bipolar 2 with mixed episodes.

My t tells me the other day, do you remember what you said in the beginning. I said yeah, that i wanted to be happy and feel good and be off of meds.

Then she tells me, do you know that you will probably have to be on meds now for the rest of your life. And i said i guess that means i'll never feel that good and happy I was wanting.

I dont know what to think now. Is the hard work physical, mental, both. What is it? Cuase i dont know. I can't tell anything anymore.