I've never really sat down to think about it too much, but at work, somedays I feel like I'm fighting the urge to cry and that's when I'm most surrounded by people but when I'm by myself I'm normal. It's funny, but I've been trying various ways of getting some of the more negative emotions out by typing it out in a document in the hopes that I would cry since I remember being a little boy and crying always felt better even if kid's problems (hopefully for the kid) are just really petty things. And all of the times a friend or family member says, "Don't cry" and you cry anyways.

It's really making me feel the gravity of how lonely I am, I'm really scared of opening up for the worry of being blown off and yet I can't really cry my feelings away by myself. It's really frustrating.