I'm useless at picking up my signals. You think after 8 years I would have a clue.

- Lack of sleep (have been getting to sleep at 3am even though in bed at 12am and waking 5am or 6am. That's me up. But at night I'm wide awake)

- Still not much energy to do squat. I'm happy sitting in my flat doing nothing

- Talking to myself I have a habit if talking to people I see in the flat

- Wanting to eat loads

- OCD tendencies are in full swing (hand washing, sorting and counting)

- I'm glued to YouTube addicted to music videos watching the same over again

- Thinking about sex a lot

- Wanting to talk to anyone all the time. Reaching out on messenger on fb.

- Looking up bipolar and reading about it kinda fixated on it like YouTube

- Noted the bullet and emailed a counsellor the other day. I have an appt next week as an initial appt. Been looking into this for a month

- ok I'll admit it I've stopped my meds (stopped them about a month ago. I don't need them)

- Questioning my diagnosis

- Feel itchy at night and feel like things are crawling over me

- Anxieties are through the roof

- Maybe spending more money than I should ie this counsellor

- Happy

- Seeking out interaction via online forums that I shouldn't be on (kinky)

Think that's it.... I'm seeing my Community Worker in 3 hours. Linda unsure what to say to her

Think that's it.