Hey Everybody!

My name is Katie (Kat, Kate... whatever you want), I am 19, and I am new to PC.. and was lead to this specific forum after the support chat tonight (which was awesome - thanks!)

Well here is a bit about me and my addiction. A year and a half ago I had a major surgery on my shoulder. Ever since then I have been addicted to pain killers. I take up to 14 a day and absolutely no one but my counselor at my school knows about this. My mom would have a heart attack and it is unrealistic (literally) for her to know about any of this. I do want to get off the pills but even reducing to one a day put me in immense physical pain. (I have a genetic disorder that makes all my joints really messed up).

I know that I should go to a doctor but I just cant. I am under my mothers insurance and anything that is billed to insurance is sent in a statement home. I am also scared to go because I also suffer from an eating disorder on top of everything else. I am terrified they will take one look at me with all these issues and send me inpatient somewhere.

I guess maybe I am just asking for suggestions how to go about this?
It just seems so impossible.

Thanks for everything, I am glad I found this site.