He expressed them (his feelings) to me last year around the time I moved into my apt. I had thought about it with him too. He is a wonderful person. He is good looking too. But I am completely not attracted to him, I realized early on, and I expressed that to him. It did take me a moment. Because I'd thought about it too. I also do not feel like we resonate in a way that I would like to resonate with a guy I'm seeing. But mainly, I am just not sexually attracted to him. It would feel like kissing my brother. I just think it would feel really gross and really uncomfortable for me and I wouldn't do that.

So that was a while back. He said he was OK with it. And that he still wants to be friends. We got a bite to eat recently and we were just being silly at one point. We were playing with our drink cups pretending to fight. And then suddenly, he took his cup and touched my cup, and was like "kiss kiss kiss." I was freaked out. I took my cup away. He didn't seem to mind or really even notice that I felt uncomfortable.

We were talking about playing golf together sometime soon. And I don't really want to now.

Also, I know this is weird, but we hug each other when we are parting. One time, at a baseball game, I touched his arm, when I was talking to him and it felt fine to do. But I still do not want to "kiss kiss kiss" him. Or see his penis. Or do anything sexual with him. I felt really weird afterward, like why did I do that? I was worried I'd led him on, and we were supposed to take a road trip together and I cancelled because I was worried about that.

I wonder if I should talk to him about what I'm thinking. I'm worried it will get awkward. Like he might feel hurt. But its not anything he didn't hear me say before. Though, he was hurt when I did say it before, actually. He had to like, recover and contemplate, I guess.