I can’t seem to “move past” this unrelenting anxiety.

Keeping it all in my head is not at all helpful. Grrrrrrr

I try meditating, mindfulness etc (sigh)

The trigger icon is ... I’m feeling sad and scared. I’m not “doing well”

I wish I could freakin hibernate

I hope I don’t have to consult a doctor about the physical stuff

“To grow a thick skin” .. (sigh)

Or .. worse .. “your lament has been heard again” ...

How freakin “supportive” - I do not dish out “support” like that to others...

This was not said by anyone on this forum ..

Maybe that is partly why the parental units were so mean, cruel, and abandoning..

To force me to “grow a thick skin”

Well guess what it didn’t work

As hard as I try to move forward etc... I’m sensitive and for those who get me at all this isn’t a “negative” thing, it generally makes me more empathic of others,

And also causes me a boat load of pain

And that GP’s “supportive” ? Comment “confidence comes from doing things” UGH

I didn’t want to talk about pain.. I didn’t want to talk about depression.

I didn’t want to be misunderstood. But he was very competent at misunderstanding everything I said and putting a negative and blaming spin on everything I said.

As have been almost all the doctors I’ve consulted

Is it possible to trust a person or group of people who keep hurting me, who “should” know better?

Of course it isn’t

I’ve learnt the lesson that I’m a POS I’m not “worth their time” - Parental Units, doctors, others irl

(This post is not about anyone on this forum)

Maybe I ........ censored.