I lost my mom ten years ago. We didn't have a good relationship until I was 30. I had a better understanding of her life and, while not condoning things she let happen, I understood the dynamics of her marriage better and forgave her. She tried to ask for forgiveness on her death bed and I told her we didn't need to discuss it. I had forgiven her a long time ago. I didn't want her last days to be full of regret. I thought her birthday would be the hardest for me, but, not, it is the anniversary of her birthday and MOther's Day. I won't even get on FB that day. I can't take all the happy pictures with people with their moms.