I am slowly trying to let go of a bad to no relationship with my father. Now that I know more about mental health, I really think he is at the end of the autism spectrum with Asperger's and that has colored his personality so much - why he was so focused on me learning physics and mechanics, calling English and fictional books (my personal love) a waste of time, angry and yelling a lot because we didn't agree with his opinions.

Everyone who meets him and speaks with him knows in 2 minutes flat that he is not an ordinary person.

So I would like to let go of my anger at him for the lack of a positive male role model in my life, for the constant verbal abuse and the physical abuse as well.

Many things out of his control color his views on life and his opinions being so strong, he feels everyone who doesn't believe as he does is a complete idiot.

I would like to have a relationship with my father, and he has gotten somewhat better as he's gotten older (he's 64 years old now), but I don't know if that will ever happen with his trying personality and even now that I understand why he is the way he is.