It sounds like you're calculating your behavior to try to make her be the one to reach out - by quitting, then going back and cancelling. I can understand wanting to do this. However, T's aren't really supposed to "reach out" and convince clients who told them they quit to come back. That would go against client autonomy. Have you told your T that you feel like she never owns her part of ruptures? Because what it sounds like happens is that there is a rupture, which you both contribute to, and then that leads to a series of escalating episodes of you acting out, which is your own responsibility.


Are you still trying to text her, or did you leave her a voicemail?