Hi all, I am praying someone has gone thru what I am. I have dealt with ADHD, depression & irritable bowel syndrome since the birth of my oldest daughter 10yrs ago, and after every baby, my depression has gotten worse. I dealt with it on my own & just put on a happy face & camoflauged it . When I felt I couldn't handle the depression anymore, I would go to the dr & get antidepressants.
Two & a half yrs ago, (Sept 06) I had to have a hysterectomy, I was depressed but not on anything, which was my own choice. I know dealing with my depression was worse & harder than before my hysterectomy.
I didn't get real bad till last Jan, So I was put on celexa , last year Jan 07 for depression & anxiety, and weened myself off in April to start a natural supplement, I thought the natural supplement was working but in July I started feeling the sadness & lonliness coming back and by the end of Aug I started getting to the level I am at now. I am a singer, I used to sing everynight after my kids would go to bed, even being depressed before & not being on antidepressants, it is what gave me peace.
In Oct, I started feeling like I was lost, in slow motion, my heart just feels broke, I am crying all the time, I can't fall asleep & If I do, I wake up a couple times a nite, I do not want to go anywhere or do anything, & if I didn't have kids to tend to, I would just lay in bed staring at the walls & if I have to go anywhere by myself, my heart just pounds & I get shaky & sweaty feeling all over. I did start drinking as well, which I know makes it worse, the sad thing is, it is (was) the only way I can pic up my microphone anymore and it helped me sleep. About 3x's a week I would take 3-4shots of jim beam. I stopped the drinking two weeks ago today, when my husband confronted me about it, I don't miss the drinking, I miss my singing but I can not do it, its like I lost it somehow.

But if I am not on an antidepressant I am depressed just not this bad cuz it gets worse during the winter season. I have horomone checks every yr, and the last one (march) has come back fine.
I went to the dr on Feb 14 on my receipt it says this "Major Depressive Affec. Disorder, Recurrence" & prescribed bupropion 150mg SR, generic wellbutrin & also told me to take one benedryl to help me sleep.
Ok so now, has anyone been where I am at?? Can anyone tell me what else I can do?