I heard back from the job I interviewed for and they offered me the position!!! They offered me an even better position of a permanent substitute teacher in the school. Less hours and more pay, still considered full time though. I’m excited to have finally found a job but I am anxious. For one, I have to pass a physical In which I must lift 50lbs. I am afraid I will not be able to do it because of my back. Although I can lift my son and he’s 43 pounds. So maybe it will be ok.

I am of course also anxious that it will be too stressful. I really lost my confidence last year. That job was so awful. I hope this job will not be as bad. I think as a substitute I will not be required to do a lot of the teaching paperwork like lesson plans and grading and such. This should lessen my stress load. Also, I will actually know what’s happening instead of being lost in a subject I don’t understand. These kids are very very low skills wise. Many are nonverbal. So even teaching something like math is likely to be either life skills math or even lower than that. I can handle that. I’m hoping, anyway.

Please wish me luck with this new endeavor! Most of you know how much I’ve struggled with being unemployed. I am hoping I have found my new niche.