Hey,

Sorry youre having a tough time, however, i ve dealt with depression, add, and abuse as well as SI. Heres the thing that worked for me. I HAD to go to counseling. I just HAD to. do i want to? NOPE! but i have to. its what breathes live into me after the meds have started working.

Its taken a loooong time, and its starting to get better. I still have bad days (cough) yesterday but they arent as bad as they used to be.

Have you checked into therapy? I take the same meds as you by the way. it works.

Hope this helps

Colleen