Hi.
My lifes a mess. Ive got a lot of mental health issues. As a result im housebound and socially isolated.
Recently its my AVPD and childhood trauma that are keeping me stuck.

So after 15 years of trying different drugs and meds.... ive found heroin.
And i really like it... i dont know what to do about that. Im not physically dependant yet. But i certainly will be if i continue.
Problem being i dont care enough about myself to avoid inflicting a heroin addiction on myself. I also really like how it smoothes over all the rough edges of my psyche.

Ive been suicidally depressed for 2 months.. i had to fo something about it.
The doctors refused me any meds bar ssris - which dont do $##! for me...
I dont know what to do about this. Im seeing the doctors again today but im skeptical theyll come up with anything worthwhile.. theyre not a very good 'team'

C5