So how did the meet up go? Might be helpful to reflect on it. Maybe it wasn't as bad for you as you were imagining? I can dredge up the dreariest of scenarios, almost none of which never happen :-)

Mostly though, I hope you find a way to create a life that feels better for you, more fulfilling. Doesn't mean you have finish school or get to grad school. Maybe that isn't your path, maybe it never was. One of the most important things in life is to be true to yourself and what is right for you. Unless you are a person is pretty honest with themselves, it takes a lot of stillness and deep introspection to know yourself and to find your way and not be influenced by what others are doing/saying. And tolerate some trial and error :-))