Hi all!!! Loki is doing much better this week. He's been going to groups and meeting with doctors and seems to feel much safer on a 24 hour suicide watch. He confided to me that he had been feeling suicidal but it was his love for me that caused him to self- injure instead, because he didn't want to leave me all alone. Wow. He has been really helping me deal with my guilty feelings over all of this and has never blamed me. In fact he feared I wouldn't want him in my life after this. Honestly it just makes me love him more. As a friend, of course, because that's what he wants and needs right now... A friend. It's hard for both of us to avoid romance but it was causing all these jealous episodes on his side of things. I would rather just give him comfort and support instead of highly emotional complications.
And thank you, Fhairrage!!! Animals are my 2nd greatest love in life. 😁 I devote a lot of myself to them although it can be stressful.