blue, I can't speak to your dx but I can speak to your addiction question. I have an addictive personality. If I truly find pleasure in something I have an amazing capacity to abuse it to the point of very real dependency. This sucks and does make life complicated.

So how do I deal? One day at a time. I step back, ask myself a simple question, and adjust. The question is, "is this healthy?"

What I like about this question is that addiction issues aside, it helps with life in general and guides me toward better choices.

Now make no mistake, I'm no saint. Far from it. I don't make perfect choices and I'm no puritan. But it is harder for me to make the same bad choices over and over again when asking this question on a regular basis. And if a behavior is getting out of hand (i.e., I'm putting my need for something above, say, the needs of my family) I apply the same coping mechanism I use for drugs to that behavior.

I hope this helps and good luck.

Cyran0