Yes, please seek help and advisement. You need to leave this man, despite your fears. It will only continue and will worsen your own mental health and stability over time. Plus, it's not healthy for your son to witness domestic violence. He will grow up to model your husband's behavior in time. Your husband is not a proper role model. You are dealing with physical and emotional abuse. Do whatever it takes to leave him. You've already taken the preliminary steps.. now you need to follow through with an escape plan. I suggest seeking guidance from a counselor on your own. ((((Hugs))))