I think you can feel good with meds controlling your BP disorder. I do think that the PTSD stuff needs a lot of work that you are already doing. I really don't blame you for anger. I work hard to let that one go as it hurts me inside. Your anger though could help. Writing letters to the institutions that failed you in the storm and telling them what it was like. So many could learn from you. I guess what I am saying id try and turn the anger energy into something positive. I think in many ways you already are.