Been there and got the T-Shirt...... 6 times.

You must go back to your dr and ask for a referal to see a therapist, also to go on meds and take them REGULAR. Life can and will return to normal but it will take time therapy and I believe meds, not self medicating with drink as that will only add to your depression.

Is there anyway your husband can go with you to the dr so he can hear just what a serious problem this is to you ?

Also stick with your routines with the children it will be of great help to you as it will stop you falling behind on things which again will add to your depression. On days it really bad cheat on meals and serve dinner on paper plates so no washing up, re-fold pjs dont wash them everyday. Cold dinners dont hurt once in a while ie sandwiches and fruit. Try to go shopping for food on your own get hubby to have the kids while you go once a week its far less stressfull going on your own.

On good days cook double the amount of dinner needed and freeze half to dish up on a bad day. if you can afford it pay for a child minder one afternoon a week for the kids so you can have some time for you .... ie bath, read mags, hairdressers etc.

If I think of anything else I used to do I will post it on here, best of luck and remember ENJOY YOUR CHILDREN. The house work wont hurt if its not done everyday.