I think I was led on...I found out near new years of this year actually. And the thing is I can't tell if everything was faked, I honestly can't tell if he was honest with me from the start.


The backstory is that I know this guy liked me ( I think, I couldn't tell because it was very mixed signals, and I have a friend that acts exactly the same way that he does and my friend has a girlfriend already so I thought nothing of it). Either way he came off very personably. Always asking how my day was, and he always helped me even when I wanted to do it on my own. I'm not completely useless after all....kinda. Asking what I liked and what my favourite things are etc Even sometimes getting ansty when I'm showing him and my other coworkers pictures of my friend's latte art. The thing is I eventually started liking him because of how much of a goofball he is. When he knows something is wrong, he will try to make you smile which is a sweet gesture. He would often come downstairs when he worked upstairs to bother us mainly to me but usually to liven up the mood.


It was when I started liking him that everything felt...different. I felt like my other coworkers knew something that I didn't because I was always left in the dark and load and behold he already had a girlfriend....found out from his aunt who told me. To say that I was hurt is an understatement because I trusted his honestly when he claimed he's tired of being single. I believed in everything he said...and the thing that hurts the most is that he acts like I don't know anything. I even found out he's not even a student from my uni that I attend, and the thing is some of my coworkers were in on this as well. I'm honestly disheartened by everything that happened...


I have gotten to the point of the it is what it is saying, but sometimes small things will trigger me. Because I'm desperatly holding onto the belief that they're not bad people. That maybe he never faked his feelings for me and recently got a girlfriend and fell out of liking me. Or this was just a thing to past time, fun and games kind of thing. But overall I have never felt so hurt....