I looked again at flight prices because I'm bored at work and scared to not have something to do... It definitely seems really unrealistic. I found a couple flights next June for around $700, but when I did some research into those "special deals" it can be because of huge layovers and weird things like airport switching, plus you don't get to know flight details until you book and pay, and it's non-refundable... Without the special deals, the best I could find was just over $1k, and that was for a 2-stop flight with a massive layover of like 20 hours. After that, the prices skyrocket to add another $300-$400... Yeesh. I can't look at July or August '19 yet and that's when it would have to be, but the prices won't be massively different in that time... Not looking good. I need to win the lottery to afford it realistically.

Definitely not feeling hopeful. I think I need to find some way to be content with staying friends on the internet. He wants to move to Canada when he's done with school, and financially that seems like it will be the only option I could afford since I could technically just drive there and depending on where in Canada it might be pretty easy (I live in Michigan which is pretty close to it). And well I dunno, I just felt this wave of calm when typing that... So I don't think me flying to France is an option period with my anxiety, it's just too scary with all factors considered.