-I feel lonely
-I feel no interest in anything
-I feel numb
-I feel empty
-I have no friend, no one to talk to
-I feel very very sad
-I m sliding into the hell hole of depression
My depression is biological. My bf was the only reason why I was being hopeful, he was the reason why I was recovering from my depression...maybe very slowly...still I was. Suddenly last week he stopped talking to me and told me not to contact him again. He refuses to give me any reason. Is not replying to my mssgs or picking up my call. He was the only friend I had. Now there's a massive void in my life. I m back at the bottom, I don't know how to climb back to the top...I got lost. I m in denial and shock and grieving the loss...I feel so so depressed that I am not being able to do anything. Just feel like staying in bed the whole day. My grief overlapped with my depression is making me miserable.
There is another twist to this. Some people from another forum with whom my bf used to chat tell me that he is not visiting that forum and may have got psychotic. He may still want me back but is confused. I don't know how to get better myself or to support him. If I was in the US, I would have straight gone to where he lives. I m in India and till now ours has been an internet relationship...I don't know what to do except leaving voice mssgs in his phone.
Is there any way I can recover from this dilemma and misery and feel a little happy again? I need to be picked up.