Sorry to hear you so low Desiree2006.

Grieving is needed, it's tough but stick with it.

BF is not worth it. I went through something similar and it was a massive wake up call when I stopped offering and wasting my offer of love to someone who had no respect for me. Offer your love to you. I bet he had faults, even if you did not see them yet. I can think of his biggest fault, he was a fool to let you go.

Many hugs and love to you Desiree