I'm sorry about your breakup. It's very hard to lose the only friend you have, especially if it's a love of your life. I don't know what to tell you. I have broken up with others myself. Sometimes I took them back when they still wanted me. and at times I ended sorry that I took them back. But then there were quite a few that the breakup was mutual.

Depression can cause someone to want to breakup with others. One symptom of depression is that you can find others to be irritating. There had been times when others irritate me easily. I have been feeling that way lately.

I wish for the best for you. You seem like a precious person.