fly, so glad you're feeling better. asking for help is soooooooo hard for us. i am there with you. if i lived nearby, i'd bake my infamous sour cream cookies and bring them over and we'd wash your walls together and then get that painter man rocking!!! being lonely is the pits and i isolate myself pretty well...which really makes sense, right? i'm glad you've got a project going now. it always helps me. i've been building up to making some jewelry. AND i did design and make a sterling silver pendant for my "significant" other recently. it is a bear for protection while he's overseas. other than that i'm empty but hopefully the residual feel good from that will carry me into another piece.......you've got tons of friends here, fly, hang in~~ love, pat