I just don't want to live my life... at all. I don't want to work, don't want to try to get better, don't want to feel better, don't want any of those life "milestones" that I used to. I find that it's not worth the pain. I've been ok lately but today I'd do anything to get rid of the pain. I had to say goodbye to my therapist and soon everyone I know here because I'm moving. Just when I finally had a chance of improving and living a normal life, I'm going backward. I just don't want to go through anything else, good or bad. I don't know what to do.