Hi, I'm 25 and not exactly sure how to begin this. Up until about a year ago, I never questioned my sexuality, felt reasonably confident in that I was straight and sexually attracted to men. I had had one year long relationship in which I never questioned myself, and six other sexual partners of varying lengths of time. Last June, I met a guy who would soon become my second long(Ish) term relationship, but whom I believe may have somehow had something to do with my beginning to question myself. He has several more feminine qualities, and about a month after starting to hang out with him regularly I began to start feeling an attraction (literally FEELING it down there) towards a coworker whom I hadn't felt anything for beforehand. I didn't find her physically attractive at all, and I was still happy and not concerned about my sex life with my guy at this point so I initially ignored it. We met as I was in the state for a seasonal gig and probably less than a month after we met, he was asking me to move across the country with me. At first I was standing at a strong 'no', but by the time October rolled around I had convinced myself that the move may be a good thing. I think I'm also a low key commitment-phobe, so this was slightly terrifying for me. After the season ended, I had more random attractions to women. A friend I met up with in Europe in Nov., random people in Europe, I feel like the more I worried about what was happening to me the more it happened. Fast forward to moving in together, I felt like I had no control over what my vagina was feeling (constant state of anxiety/arousal?) every time I went to work, out walking around, etc. which I attempted to ignore until about May when I crashed into a state of depression. There was a point where I didn't want to go out shopping in fear that I'd start being sexually aroused for something that I don't feel I actually want. I was afraid to participate in a Bachelorette party because I was afraid of being sexually aroused by my friends. The lowest point was going home for a visit and being afraid that I'd feel something when I saw my mom. My sexual desire for my boyfriend had all but faded away before we even moved in together, i think partly because of the massive amount of stress this overthinking of my sexuality has put on my brain, on the rest of my anatomy, and because I knew I was hiding these thoughts from him but I didn't know how I could tell him. I love him very much, but I've moved back to the east coast. I can't stop analyzing people's voices, mannerisms, and anything else about a person to determine what I'm attracted to and even what they're attracted to. I just want to be able to hang out with my friends again, or even make new friends, without fear of this nagging(sometimes painful) feeling of attraction always being there! I just want to be happy again, and feel confident in whoever I am. Please, any advice is welcomed, I'm not sure if anyone else has ever been in a situation like this.