I have been trying different spiritual stuff to help with bipolar. I have tried Christianity, Zen Buddhism and crystals. I don't really know if any of them have helped. I seem to go from believing in God or some higher power when depressed to atheist when i don't feel depressed. My spiritual beliefs change as often as my moods. I'm trying to figure this stuff out but don't really know if it will help me at all. I know meditation and prayer is supposed to help with mental illness but I haven't really experienced either of those things helping. I also felt like crystals help but don't know if it's placebo or not. I am interested in spirituality, but mostly just when depressed. (which is most of the time) But when I'm not depressed, I don't care at all. It's like my mornings I get the most depressed, then I want to meditate and talk to God, read a Bible, then as the day goes on and I get less depressed, I care less and less. Anyone have any experiences with spirituality that help?