I let myself get attached again.
I really don't want you to maintain strict boundaries, which probably means that I need you to maintain strict boundaries. There are a lot of extenuating circumstances right now, so you really need to be careful. Don't let your guilt over mishandling the DBT thing make you treat me differently.
No matter how much I think I want you to cross boundaries and treat me like I'm special, if you did that you'd be letting me down and betraying my trust. I'm counting on you to keep your word. Don't screw this up.