Maybe if I write these thoughts down I’ll do a better job of staying on this track. Reading and writing has always been good therapy for me. Discussion with like-minded folks also helps a great deal.

I have the mistaken idea that life is “supposed” to be the way I want it. It’s not something I readily admit but I need to face it. I’m hung up on my desire for everything to be the way I want it versus appreciating the many blessings in my life.

I’m currently reading about how the human brain focuses in on the negative... not the positive... as a survival instinct. I’ve gotten hung up on the negative - long past it serving any purpose for me.

Every day I’m now interrupting my own negative thoughts and looking at the good side of things. I’ll never get over the negative things if I don’t stop dwelling on them. There is good and bad in everything and life is never going to be exactly like I want it... but it can be a wonderful life if I accept it as it is.

Recently I’ve experienced more self awareness than usual... and while I don’t like some things I see... there is also a lot of good that I don’t give myself credit for.

Confidence in myself, compassion and acceptance with myself... that’s going to take some work. It won’t just happen. I have to practice being positive and accepting myself as well as others. It honestly feels like a daunting task. I can do this though. I truly can. I’ll need a lot of reminding because every day I second-guess myself...