I am fine when I have distractions from my PTSD, but when I don't I feel the world coming down on me. I want to hide. I have T tomorrow and last session was amazing, but I am feeling uneasy with a sick feeling about going tomorrow. I don't want to face the terror, the truth, my childhood but I can't pretend any longer. I feel so torn from re surpressing the memories or letting them cry all over myself tomorrow. I am afraid of losing myself tomorrow. But yet I feel myself needing my T, like he will reground me this week. I don't know I just don't like this feeling.